鈥淏ut, mon cher patron, it isn鈥檛 true what you have said at the Caf茅 de l鈥橴nivers,鈥?protested Martin, when Bigourdin told him of the explanation. Elbow on table she held a morsel of bread to her lips. 鈥淗e waits so well, doesn鈥檛 he?鈥?she said. 鈥淗ave you considered your prospects on leaving prison? I understand from Mr. Overton that you have lost the legacy which your grandfather left you, together with all the interest that accrued during your minority, in the course of speculation upon the Stock Exchange! If you have indeed been guilty of such appalling folly it is difficult to see what you can turn your hand to, and I suppose you will try to find a clerkship in an office. Your salary will doubtless be low at first, but you have made your bed and must not complain if you have to lie upon it. If you take pains to please your employers they will not be backward in promoting you. 黃色高清三级带 To myself he has been a son and more than a son; at times I am half afraid 鈥?as for example when I talk to him about his books 鈥?that I may have been to him more like a father than I ought; if I have, I trust he has forgiven me. His books are the only bone of contention between us. I want him to write like other people, and not to offend so many his readers; he says he can no more change his manner of writing than the colour of his hair and that he must write as he does or not at all. ABOUT a week before he went back to school his father again sent for him into the dining-room, and told him that he should restore him his watch, but that he should deduct the sum he had paid for it 鈥?for he had thought it better to pay a few shillings rather than dispute the ownership of the watch, seeing that Ernest had undoubtedly given it to Ellen 鈥?from his pocket-money, in payments which should extend over two half years. He would therefore have to go back to Roughborough this half year with only five shillings鈥?pocket-money. If he wanted more he must earn more merit money. Only a year ago he had bounded forth to welcome Mr. Hawke鈥檚 sermon; since then he had bounded after a College of Spiritual Pathology; now he was in full cry after rationalism pure and simple; how could he be sure that his present state of mind would be more lasting than his previous ones? He could not be certain, but he felt as though he were now on firmer ground than he had ever been before, and no matter how fleeting his present opinions might prove to be, he could not but act according to them till he saw reason to change them. How impossible, he reflected, it would have been for him to do this, if he had remained surrounded by people like his father and mother, or Pryer and Pryer鈥檚 friends, and his rector. He had been observing, reflecting, and assimilating all these months with no more consciousness of mental growth than a schoolboy has of growth of body, but should he have been able to admit his growth to himself, and to act up to his increased strength if he had remained in constant close connection with people who assured him solemnly that he was under a hallucination? The combination against him was greater than his unaided strength could have broken through, and he felt doubtful how far any shock less severe than the one from which he was suffering would have sufficed to free him. 鈥淏elieving that a son of your mother and myself would be incapable of falsehood I at once assumed that some tramp had picked the watch up and was now trying to dispose of it.鈥?